Wall - Poems of the lost soul

 

If I had poison I would take it.

This life I want to break it.

Windows are open, so I go.

Look at this world, just for show.

I look down and it's so high,

Something is, still holding me by.

Just another single step,

This world would not be kept.

I keep looking outside,

The sky, the world, or fate passing by.

I turn back to see the ceiling,

All it takes is just a string.

Knives on table looks at me,

I’m a coward, so don’t look, please.

I go out, for a walk,

People pass by, in two’s or third’s,

Everyone is happy, on outside,

Who can tell, what’s inside.

I get lost, as i walk,

Nothing can break my thoughts,

Or so i thought,

Another car pass me by,

Pulling my thoughts back from inside.

Another step it takes,

Between life and the brakes,

To end all and fix mistakes,

I lament deep inside,

As cars keep passing me by.

I walk on but the vision narrows,

Drowning myself, in the sorrows.

I can’t walk, can’t keep on,

The me in me, is long gone.

Just the shell is all that remains,

No soul inside, to put the blame.

Somehow, I get back home,

I open the door, look at my room,

Just a simple step, why can’t I take?

What’s stopping me? 

What the hell is inside my head?

Just a step, so hard to take,

Blaming myself, why can’t I take?

Blaming is all i can do,

That step is hard—to do.

But a day shall come,

When time stops and fate burned,

So, I wait, waiting for that time,

As I lay down again, one more time.

Days pass as i lay,

Unable to sleep, unable to betray,

Close my eyes, it’s all dark,

Open my eyes, I see a wall.

And, it’s just a wall.

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